He feels a lot better after talking to Lloyd about it but his main problem is... he still has no fucking clue what to do about it. In a perfect world he could sit down and explain his crazy relationship with Vincent and what it does for him and the worries he has about being a decent human being BUT 1. he can't talk about Vincent's personal business and 2. he can't talk about his OWN emotional business. He realized this during a conversation with Lucifer; it's not that he's afraid that he's a bad person is the problem--the problem is, at his core, he wants desperately to be good, but he's already accepted his role as the person who works in the dark. He's afraid that if he pokes the issue too much he'll no longer be able to do what what be done. This is also tied to his hang-up about wanting things for himself. Beauty's game was also a big deal for him because he let his selfish desire to keep Vincent and Raven alive and healthy interfere with doing the right thing.

But at the same time, he is somewhat wary of fixing things because at this point, he knows he's with Vincent for the long haul, and that means a good chance that he's not going home. He's not kidding himself that Raven's better off hating him but he does think Raven is better off distant from him.

Yuri flat out tells Raven he's not going home. REACTION?